the lyrics of my life....

Friday, March 26, 2010

If one day.....

      I just met with my parents and I'm so happy to see that they look fine and healthy. I suddenly realize that this is the longest month I've been away from my parents, hahaha... I used to go back my hometown every two times a week because I love my homwtown besides its very relaxing and peaceful there but nowadays I've been busy with activities here in church with dancing ministries and practice for consert FOP4 this upcoming May,2010.

     I feel some kind of commitment for the activities I've involved in the church here so I felt a kind of guilty if I left everything and went back to Ranau. But at the same time, I also wanted to see my parents, all my best cousin,and my friends. We have a tight bond to each other and we feel so much of their pain if one of them in a difficult situations. It's a long history and like an old couple, we all fell in a one synch - together forever. hehehh....

     I just can't simply let go of my responsibility and pursue my own satisfaction, it's not right ....
Right now, I have a purpose, God give me this purpose, to learn and assimilate EVERTHING that I need to learn. For example, dancing basic,vocal training and prayer meeting...

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Depression Attack !

I don't know with you guys but when I felt so depressed I tend to be quiet, deep in thoughts and I do a lot of houseworks ... alone. I mean, I can ignore a bit the trouble if I'm in action rather than I'm sitting and free for thinking. Well, they say that it is all in the mind only and I know its true but sometimes I cannot just ignore it. I can never be free of it unless I change my mood and try to think positive.

Not all people have the same problem and not all problem have the same technique to solve it... for me, I will pray for it. The nagging feeling that won't go away ~ I used to pray about it. After praying, sometimes the feeling seems to attach and don't want to go but I found my release in the promise of God that the problem will not be greater than a human strength. Since I'm not immortal so this one applies to me, heheh.

And then, I will make ( and sometimes force myself ) to think happy thoughts, singing about joy and meditating in the promise of God to remember again and again about how that is not all important and how God teach us to love no matter what the situations. Sometimes the trouble will be the same like everyday I faced only in different situations and different people but I will always have to find release for it even though I have done before.

What will you do if you are in depression?

Another two years before going 30...

Waahh,shouldn't I be so worried about it? Last year, my old bestfriend got married and I think most all of my closest friend got hooked up within the years... me? maybe its luck or maybe its fate, you can called it anyway you want but I can tell you names I've been going out with but never gets to ring any wedding bell. Maybe its my calling being single, hahah. Right now I'm in a relationship but I never sure if I'm going to marry this guy or not, well one can never really now except believing that this one will work out. (and pray too ~ lots of pray, heheh)

When I was 25 I thought that I WILL one day got married and that I HAVE to have a boyfriend but as time went by, I realized that the man of my dream only exist in my dream and not in the real world. I was so disappointed and felt a bit of vengeance in my heart. Being young and merry is really wonderful and all but naivety can also trapped the unwary young one, such as me but that is when I was still young. Now, by reaching fast into the 30's world ( I feel like I'm in LRT or bullet train going really fast ) only 2 years left, I know there are other things that is more important, more relevant and more realistic and worthy of my attention. Youthful don't last but wisdom is for eternity, I'm praying that my year as 30's will not be wasted and I make the best of it.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Learning Korean the best way I can master, :)

Hi, we meet again ! Wonderful day isn't it? A wonderful and perfect time to start to learn new things such as language. :) I've been hooked up by Korean drama almost a long time ago but I started to get more and more fanatic after I watched this romantic-comedy Korean title "You Are Beautiful". That is when my love for Korea got intense that I download everything about the movie and I even promised to myself that I am going to learn all necessary about their language.

It seems like a bit hard but when I get down to it I discovered that actually Korean language is easy to learn. This is good news since I'm totally a beginners. Hey, interested to learn more? Then we can lern together, :D

Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Unperfect me...

Hi, seems like ages ago I've written anything here.. well,its time for an updates don't you think? hehe. Everyone needs some changes and i have changed my habit from an acute addict of nescafe and all fast food available to a healthy drink and food ( to be precise,I drink Red Guava Cafe and eats lots fiber than meats. Cola is way behind me already,hehe). Not to be cocky but I love the way I choose my drinks and meals now and way slimmer than before. Hahah, I do sound cocky right? I can't help it, I am just proud of my achievement.

I've also have been thinking of changing my career but maybe its too far ahead of me...hmmm,this needs prayer ASAP ! :) I've been dreaming big recently but I feel scared too because I might disappoint myself if I cannot achieve it. Have you ever feel scared and excited at the same time for anything you wish for? If you do,then you'll understand how I feel. The issue is not the dream but its me... I'm the one who should change in order to get what I wanted, to get out of my comfort zone right?

Yet... here I am sitting in front of my computer not doing anything except moaning and complaining all day about every little details in my life. I'm just afraid... jeez, lame right? sorry to have to read all this gibberish though...

Well,apart from changing my eating lifestyle I still the same me 2 weeks ago. Maybe this is enough for the time being but I will try my hardest not to disappoint myself again. They say, one step at a time make much more difference in our life and I think it is absolutely true. :D

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Beautiful Prayer

Hi guys,

I found this amazing prayers from a blog I found while searching for spiritual battle for a couple (, I wanted to give credits for this person but it seems that he/she puts her/himself into anonymous mode so I cannot post his/her name here. Please do spend sometimes to visit his/her blog because its so human and so real... at least I feel that way but please visit her/him to decide yourself.  :)

Well, the prayer start like this...

"Lord Jesus, as I enter this workplace, I bring your presence with me. I speak your peace, Your grace, and Your perfect order into the atmosphere of my workplace.

I acknowledge Your Lordship over all that will be spoken, thought, decided and accomplished this day.
Lord Jesus, I thank You for the gifts and skills You have deposited in me. I do not take them lightly, but commit to using them responsibly and well.
Give me a fresh supply of truth and beauty on which to draw as I do my job today. Bless my creativity, my ideas, my energy so that even my smallest task may bring You honor.
Lord, when I’m confused, guide me – when I’m weary, energize me.
Lord, when I’m burned out, infuse me with the light of Your Holy Spirit.
May the work I do and the way I do it bring hope, light and courage to all that I come into contact with today.
And Oh Lord, even in this days most stressful moments, may I rest in You.
In the name of Jesus, I pray, Amen."

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Coool pictures, hehehe

So, here goes...

I just thought about sharing this beautiful inspiring picture in hope that it will inspires you back. I got it from my friends so since these picture have helped me and motivates me so much I really wanted to share it with you. Maybe you have seen it before but I just thought I post it anyway. It is free to take if you want to keep one and I hope you will like it as much as I do. Enjoy !  :D

So that is all for now but I will keep posting new inspiring picture to share with you next. I really love to hear your opinion about this picture,why not give some comment? :D Thanks so much for reading and keep blogging!